Someone asked me, „What makes you feel nervous?“
I couldn’t answer, my brain shutted down and made me zooming out
this situation, where I was forced to answer spontaneously. Dissociating is contagious,
it tells the next day, it still has to be blooming and to shout out loud,
to still shut every thought and emotion down.
I hope noone will recognize this as a behaviour of a trauma.
But it would be dope, if one would and expect nothing but would just be holding my hand until it ends, the inner drama.